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PLAYER INFO
Name: Chrono
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Are you over 18?: Yes.
CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Asuka Langley Soryu
Canon: Neon Genesis Evangelion (TV series)
Canon Point: post-End of Evangelion
Appearance: Link
Now wears an eyepatch.
Age: 14
Setting: The setting is Earth in the year 2015. Roughly fifteen years before the events of the series, half of humanity was wiped out by a cataclysmic event known as Second Impact. Supposedly the result of a meteorite striking the Earth at high speeds, Second Impact was actually caused by human experimentation in the Antarctic. The resulting famine and ecological devastation caused resource wars and other massive disasters, which killed off almost as many people as the initial blast. In addition, the Earth's rotation has been thrown out of tilt, leading ot climate change and eternal summer in Japan.
Only recently has humanity started to clamber out of the wreckage. An internationally-funded organization, known as NERV, operates out of a fortress city in Japan - Tokyo-3, and are dedicated to fighting a new threat: strange creatures known as "Angels". These creatures are apparently hostile toward humanity and the only weapons that can defeat them are bio-mechanical robots known as "Evangelion units". These units are piloted by children (whee, child soldiers). Unbeknownst to these pilots (and almost everyone else), these Eva units are powered by the souls of their dead mothers. Pulling the strings behind the scenes is a secretive organization known as SEELE, who wish to use the Evas to initiate Third Impact and turn humanity into a single entity or hive mind.
Everything's great, really.
History: Wiki link
Personality:
Asuka comes off as an overbearing, proud, willful, arrogant and brash young woman. She can certainly play the part of the social butterfly and attract attention when she wants it; she can even be charming. However, she has a difficult time truly connecting to others and her only real friend in Tokyo-3 seemed to be Hikari. She tends to be rather playful and happy-go-lucky, at least when she’s in a good mood. Added to that, however, is her need and want to be the center of attention. She’ll show off, she’ll boast. She truly is skilled, though. It’s not as if she doesn’t have skills to be proud of. She simply likes other people to know that, yes, she is that good. This stems from the period of her life where her mother believed that a doll was the "real" Asuka and refused to acknowledge Asuka as her real daughter. Asuka simply doesn’t want to be forgotten or to be alone. She wants to be noticed, for people to feed her self-esteem issues and acknowledge her.
All of this contributes to a subconscious (and in part, conscious) low self-image that Asuka carries around with her. If she isn't the best and people aren't acknowledging her as the best, she feels worthless. In fact, she derives most of her own self-worth from the praise and attention of others, despite her contemptuous treatment of those she considers beneath her. Asuka, in fact, detests herself – after all, if her own mother didn't want her, what good can she be? But she tries to counter-act this with the aforementioned praise and attention. She wants people to validate the idea that she's worth something and when other people don't, it chips away at her already precarious psyche and sense of worth.
Asuka will tease people relentlessly, whether good-natured or mean-spirited (often mean-spirited), insulting or needling at others in order to provoke a reaction. She has contempt for people she believes are weak or can’t stand up for themselves, as well as for authority figures she doesn’t truly like. She feels that she is the best in the world at what she does and that no one will ever be able to live up to her. When she is proven wrong, her most likely reaction is get angry, hurl insults, and then go off to sulk and to reassure herself (and possibly others) that it was a fluke. Next time they won’t get so lucky. Similarly she refuses to acknowledge her own mistakes and will often shift the blame to others in an attempt to reinforce her own psyche and poor self-image. She also tends to get frustrated when other people can’t keep up with her.
She isn't completely without empathy; in fact, when she's in a relatively decent spot emotionally and she doesn't feel threatened, she has a certain amount of empathy for others around her and will go out of her way to help people. When planning a celebratory dinner, for example, she deliberately switched her choice from steak to a cheaper ramen joint in order to include Rei and to make sure that Misato's wallet wouldn't be too heavily impacted. She was also quick to offer advice to Hikari when her friend was trying to figure out how to properly express her affection to Touji (another student and later an Eva pilot). She also came to visit Shinji in the hospital, despite being frustrated and angry with his actions. Most of the time, she'll try to frame this empathy as something magnanimous that she's going out of her way to do out of the kindness of her heart - and she is. She just wants some attention for it.
In combat and under pressure, Asuka reacts quickly and often decisively. She doesn’t always react in the most well-thought out ways, but she does react and move quickly. She’s quick on the uptake and aggressive. However, this often leads to her disregarding orders she believes are stupid or don’t make sense and will resort to a head-on, aggressive approach (which she believes has served her well in the past).
When Asuka feels insulted or if she gets angry at someone she'll go off on them, either with words or with some sort of physical attack (usually a slap or a hurled object). She’s very touchy and has a temper, which is partly to hide her own insecurities about herself and her work. In fact, most of her arrogant, proud personality is just that – a façade to hide her own vulnerabilities and the fact that deep down inside, she really is just a scared little girl who wants help. She’s gotten so good at repressing that part of her and repressing the traumatic memories that led to this that even she believes it to a certain extent. Continued pressure or failure on her own part will strip this away and if her self-built image and support system collapses, she'll collapse with it. If she no longer has concrete proof and reinforcement telling her that she's worth something (and if she's not the best, she isn't worth anything), she'll withdraw within herself and turn semi-suicidal.
Asuka also has a special hatred and contempt for people who are “over-logical”, who don’t show emotion, and in general don’t act human or don’t react to her teasing. In her mind, they act like “dolls” and this again leads back to the rather traumatizing experience with her mother when she was a child. Rei Ayanami, the First Child, was one of these and Asuka grew to detest her, both for her inability to respond like a “normal” person and the fact that Rei garnered attention from both Shinji Ikari and Gendo Ikari, taking away attention from her, the Second Child. They had a precarious truce of sorts for a while and Asuka did try to include her, but it all eventually fell apart.
Post-Impact, Asuka has a whole new set of trauma that piles on to of her existing issues. Although her obsession with her mother and her mother's death has been (somewhat) tempered by the knowledge that her mother did not truly reject her, she still deals with a cripplingly low self-image of herself. She failed again – when it was most important – and in addition, was forced to experience a horrible death at the hands of the Evangelion mass production series. She has shifted part of the blame for her death to Shinji Ikari and Misato Katsuragi, neither of whom apparently showed up to help her. In addition, the main external focus and item that she derived most of her self-worth from - Unit 02 - is gone, destroyed in the battle that killed her. She's adrift and trying to find a purpose for herself and a reason to keep on living (aside from her own innate fear of death). It's going to take her a while to crawl out of the emotional hole she's dug down into.
As such, she's likely to be surly, blunt, short and overall generally unpleasant to most people she encounters. She's going to privately question her own reason for existing. In short, she'll be an emotional wreck.
Canon Abilities/Skills: Asuka is a child (or teenage, in this case) prodigy and is an extremely quick learner. Give her time and motivation and she can pick up and retain information and physical training very easily. In addition, she's extremely intelligent; as of canon, she's already obtained an undergraduate degree in a unspecified subject. She's also physically fit and is in excellent physical shape for a girl her age. She's also a skilled Eva pilot and, at least when her psyche is relatively healthy, able to achieve a very high synchronization ratio with her Eva unit. This may translate to a certain ability to be able to mentally adapt and link with equipment that requires a mental or psychic link. She does not possess any psychic powers; she is simply able to slip into a connective state. She also retains the muscle memory of using the various weapons her Eva wielded in combat thanks to said synchronization. Although not the best fighter, this means she'll have a decent starting point. She's also fairly naturally athletic and possesses a strong drive to achieve. She is also able to lead effectively or at least plan for combat or tactical situations and think quickly under pressure or on the fly; communicating it in an effective way is another thing entirely. Otherwise, she's a fairly normal teenage girl.
ON STATION 72
Symbiote Specialization: Rho
Symbiote Ability:
Getting Emotional
When activated, Asuka is able to affect the emotions of other living beings and creatures by inducing certain emotional states (and as a side bonus, can pick up on the emotional states of others with enough concentration). This can be positive or negative and may, at times, end up being associated with a particular person or object.
Level I
At this level, Asuka can induce basic emotional states on people: happy, sad, angry, etc. She's also a bit limited in how focused she can make it. It's typically just sort of a general mood shift and unless the other person is aware of her abilities or has experience with telepathic/mind manipulating powers, they will likely just rationalize it on their own or believe that they've been afflicted with mood swings. Range is limited to her touch. She has to concentrate to effectively pick up on the other person's current emotional state (if it's not obvious). She cannot direct the emotion AT anyone or anything, but she could certainly make suggestions the old-fashioned way. May only affect one person at a time. Usable once every twenty minutes.
Level II
At this level, her ability to direct the emotions (and the spread of them) increases. She could make someone at another person or make them sad about the current topic of conversation or more positively inclined toward her or her friends. She also requires less concentration to pick up on someone's emotional state, although it's still a part of the power that she needs to switch "on". As before, unless they're experienced with or have a reason to think that they're being actively manipulated, the target will likely rationalize it. Range is now five meters and does not require touch, although touch does make it easier. She may affect up to three targets at once. Usable once every ten minutes.
Level III
At this level, Asuka's control starts to border on instinctual. She can near effortlessly detect the emotional state of people nearby when she wishes to and then turn that emotional state on its head. They will believe that their anger or happiness or sorrow comes from something inside of themselves. They will "realize" something, although dramatic shifts in mood may still be suspicious from the perspective of an outside observer. Range is increased to ten meters. She may focus on up to five people at once. Alternatively, she can use a more basic level of the power (i.e. simply changing the very basic mood from something like excitement to disappointment or joy to anger, etc.) without anyone or anything being the particular target on small crowds (up to two dozen people). Usable once every five minutes.
At all levels, she experiences a certain degree of emotional dissociation after extended use. This can manifest either as her experiencing the emotion she intended to inflict or as an emotional numbness that will intensify with extended or extremely stressful use. During this numb period, she will be apathetic and unable to experience emotions beyond a very slight, basic level; this may have an impact on her sense of self-preservation. In addition, should she exceed the noted number of "uses" per the given time period, she will develop a horrific migraine, but will still be relatively successful, although the effect degrades with each subsequent use; if she tries to exceed her limit too often or too much or otherwise push herself too far, not only will the attempt fail, she will also knock herself unconscious.
An unintended consequence is also that the target's brain chemistry needs time to reset. Even after she finishes influencing people, it will take time for them to recover and this can potentially backfire if the target she made angry decides that she is a good target for her anger.
Inventory: Plug-suit, eye-pach, bandages.
SAMPLES
Samples: One Two
Rescue Write-up:
Asuka knows that she can win. She knows that she's the best, that these pale imitations of her Unit 02 are nothing more than chaff. Especially not now, not when she knows. Not when her mother is here with her, not when she's the most powerful, the most exuberant she's ever been. She can win. It's not even a contest. She mows through them, one after the other, after the other, after the other. There's a timer and a part of her is waiting, hoping that Unit 01 will actually show up. She only has so much battery power left and the clock is ticking town with each passing second. But she's close, she's so close, she can taste it and then he turns to swat a spear out of the sky-
It does something unexpected. It shifts, it mutates, and then two prongs of something sharp and cold drive themselves straight through her defenses (her AT field) and lance into her unit (her). There's pain. Nothing but sharp, unending agony from her left eye and she screams, clutching at an injury that she knows isn't really there, but it hurts and she's out of time. She's out of power and she feels so much anger, so much pain.
She knows she can win.
She's going to kill them. She's going to kill all of them and make them pay and she can feel Unit 02 responding, feel it starting to move, powered by the sheer force of will-
They tear her apart.
Later, much later, she's on a beach, blood-red waves washing against the sand. She's seen too much, knows too much, seen herself, seen what she is, seen what a world without any borders, without any separation is, and she hates herself for it. She hates what she is, who she is, what she's been. Shinji is kneeling over her, his hands around her throat, and he squeezes. She can feel the life being choked out of her. She can't breathe and Asuka - Asuka, for once in her life, feels pity. Pity and revulsion, because she knows now why he does what he does. She's glimpsed inside the heart of humanity and as much as she despises it, as much as she despises the idea of being forced into contact with all of them, as much as she despises herself, there's understanding now.
Horrible, twisted understanding. She brushes a hand against his cheek in a gesture that's more sympathetic than anything she ever offered him when it might have mattered and he falls away, sobbing and she can suck air back into her lungs again. She can feel her gorge rise, a twisting in her stomach and she murmurs something to the air, to the abandoned wreckage of humanity.
"I feel sick."
There's something (someone) tugging at her attention. A silent ping. There's something wrong Something that shouldn't be here. She looks up, willing herself to move (she feels shaky, newborn, as if her limbs are rubber). There's... something coming down the beach. Several somethings. Dark figures and they're moving with hostile intent. She's been a pilot long enough to know that. Her heart starts to race, picking up from a sluggish pace to a quick pitter-patter as adrenaline starts to surge again. This feels wrong in so many different ways and she eases back a step, reaching down to try and get Shinji's attention.
"Hey-"
They need to go. She needs to go. She can't stay here, something tells her. Or she's going to die all over again. She takes another step back. Where the Hell is she supposed to go? Everyone is gone. Everything is a wreck. She has no weapons, no Eva, nothing. There's a faint 'pop' of displaced air, as someone or something appears behind her and she turns, good eye wide and staring. There's a man standing there, dark-skinned and tall, and incredibly calm. All he does is extend his hand to her.
Maybe she's hallucinating again. Maybe this is all a dream.
There's something (someone) tugging at her attention. Another silent inquiry. The man in front of her stares silently.
Do you want to live?
"Yes," she says, without a second thought.
The world falls away.
Name: Chrono
Contact: PM /
Are you over 18?: Yes.
CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Asuka Langley Soryu
Canon: Neon Genesis Evangelion (TV series)
Canon Point: post-End of Evangelion
Appearance: Link
Now wears an eyepatch.
Age: 14
Setting: The setting is Earth in the year 2015. Roughly fifteen years before the events of the series, half of humanity was wiped out by a cataclysmic event known as Second Impact. Supposedly the result of a meteorite striking the Earth at high speeds, Second Impact was actually caused by human experimentation in the Antarctic. The resulting famine and ecological devastation caused resource wars and other massive disasters, which killed off almost as many people as the initial blast. In addition, the Earth's rotation has been thrown out of tilt, leading ot climate change and eternal summer in Japan.
Only recently has humanity started to clamber out of the wreckage. An internationally-funded organization, known as NERV, operates out of a fortress city in Japan - Tokyo-3, and are dedicated to fighting a new threat: strange creatures known as "Angels". These creatures are apparently hostile toward humanity and the only weapons that can defeat them are bio-mechanical robots known as "Evangelion units". These units are piloted by children (whee, child soldiers). Unbeknownst to these pilots (and almost everyone else), these Eva units are powered by the souls of their dead mothers. Pulling the strings behind the scenes is a secretive organization known as SEELE, who wish to use the Evas to initiate Third Impact and turn humanity into a single entity or hive mind.
Everything's great, really.
History: Wiki link
Personality:
Asuka comes off as an overbearing, proud, willful, arrogant and brash young woman. She can certainly play the part of the social butterfly and attract attention when she wants it; she can even be charming. However, she has a difficult time truly connecting to others and her only real friend in Tokyo-3 seemed to be Hikari. She tends to be rather playful and happy-go-lucky, at least when she’s in a good mood. Added to that, however, is her need and want to be the center of attention. She’ll show off, she’ll boast. She truly is skilled, though. It’s not as if she doesn’t have skills to be proud of. She simply likes other people to know that, yes, she is that good. This stems from the period of her life where her mother believed that a doll was the "real" Asuka and refused to acknowledge Asuka as her real daughter. Asuka simply doesn’t want to be forgotten or to be alone. She wants to be noticed, for people to feed her self-esteem issues and acknowledge her.
All of this contributes to a subconscious (and in part, conscious) low self-image that Asuka carries around with her. If she isn't the best and people aren't acknowledging her as the best, she feels worthless. In fact, she derives most of her own self-worth from the praise and attention of others, despite her contemptuous treatment of those she considers beneath her. Asuka, in fact, detests herself – after all, if her own mother didn't want her, what good can she be? But she tries to counter-act this with the aforementioned praise and attention. She wants people to validate the idea that she's worth something and when other people don't, it chips away at her already precarious psyche and sense of worth.
Asuka will tease people relentlessly, whether good-natured or mean-spirited (often mean-spirited), insulting or needling at others in order to provoke a reaction. She has contempt for people she believes are weak or can’t stand up for themselves, as well as for authority figures she doesn’t truly like. She feels that she is the best in the world at what she does and that no one will ever be able to live up to her. When she is proven wrong, her most likely reaction is get angry, hurl insults, and then go off to sulk and to reassure herself (and possibly others) that it was a fluke. Next time they won’t get so lucky. Similarly she refuses to acknowledge her own mistakes and will often shift the blame to others in an attempt to reinforce her own psyche and poor self-image. She also tends to get frustrated when other people can’t keep up with her.
She isn't completely without empathy; in fact, when she's in a relatively decent spot emotionally and she doesn't feel threatened, she has a certain amount of empathy for others around her and will go out of her way to help people. When planning a celebratory dinner, for example, she deliberately switched her choice from steak to a cheaper ramen joint in order to include Rei and to make sure that Misato's wallet wouldn't be too heavily impacted. She was also quick to offer advice to Hikari when her friend was trying to figure out how to properly express her affection to Touji (another student and later an Eva pilot). She also came to visit Shinji in the hospital, despite being frustrated and angry with his actions. Most of the time, she'll try to frame this empathy as something magnanimous that she's going out of her way to do out of the kindness of her heart - and she is. She just wants some attention for it.
In combat and under pressure, Asuka reacts quickly and often decisively. She doesn’t always react in the most well-thought out ways, but she does react and move quickly. She’s quick on the uptake and aggressive. However, this often leads to her disregarding orders she believes are stupid or don’t make sense and will resort to a head-on, aggressive approach (which she believes has served her well in the past).
When Asuka feels insulted or if she gets angry at someone she'll go off on them, either with words or with some sort of physical attack (usually a slap or a hurled object). She’s very touchy and has a temper, which is partly to hide her own insecurities about herself and her work. In fact, most of her arrogant, proud personality is just that – a façade to hide her own vulnerabilities and the fact that deep down inside, she really is just a scared little girl who wants help. She’s gotten so good at repressing that part of her and repressing the traumatic memories that led to this that even she believes it to a certain extent. Continued pressure or failure on her own part will strip this away and if her self-built image and support system collapses, she'll collapse with it. If she no longer has concrete proof and reinforcement telling her that she's worth something (and if she's not the best, she isn't worth anything), she'll withdraw within herself and turn semi-suicidal.
Asuka also has a special hatred and contempt for people who are “over-logical”, who don’t show emotion, and in general don’t act human or don’t react to her teasing. In her mind, they act like “dolls” and this again leads back to the rather traumatizing experience with her mother when she was a child. Rei Ayanami, the First Child, was one of these and Asuka grew to detest her, both for her inability to respond like a “normal” person and the fact that Rei garnered attention from both Shinji Ikari and Gendo Ikari, taking away attention from her, the Second Child. They had a precarious truce of sorts for a while and Asuka did try to include her, but it all eventually fell apart.
Post-Impact, Asuka has a whole new set of trauma that piles on to of her existing issues. Although her obsession with her mother and her mother's death has been (somewhat) tempered by the knowledge that her mother did not truly reject her, she still deals with a cripplingly low self-image of herself. She failed again – when it was most important – and in addition, was forced to experience a horrible death at the hands of the Evangelion mass production series. She has shifted part of the blame for her death to Shinji Ikari and Misato Katsuragi, neither of whom apparently showed up to help her. In addition, the main external focus and item that she derived most of her self-worth from - Unit 02 - is gone, destroyed in the battle that killed her. She's adrift and trying to find a purpose for herself and a reason to keep on living (aside from her own innate fear of death). It's going to take her a while to crawl out of the emotional hole she's dug down into.
As such, she's likely to be surly, blunt, short and overall generally unpleasant to most people she encounters. She's going to privately question her own reason for existing. In short, she'll be an emotional wreck.
Canon Abilities/Skills: Asuka is a child (or teenage, in this case) prodigy and is an extremely quick learner. Give her time and motivation and she can pick up and retain information and physical training very easily. In addition, she's extremely intelligent; as of canon, she's already obtained an undergraduate degree in a unspecified subject. She's also physically fit and is in excellent physical shape for a girl her age. She's also a skilled Eva pilot and, at least when her psyche is relatively healthy, able to achieve a very high synchronization ratio with her Eva unit. This may translate to a certain ability to be able to mentally adapt and link with equipment that requires a mental or psychic link. She does not possess any psychic powers; she is simply able to slip into a connective state. She also retains the muscle memory of using the various weapons her Eva wielded in combat thanks to said synchronization. Although not the best fighter, this means she'll have a decent starting point. She's also fairly naturally athletic and possesses a strong drive to achieve. She is also able to lead effectively or at least plan for combat or tactical situations and think quickly under pressure or on the fly; communicating it in an effective way is another thing entirely. Otherwise, she's a fairly normal teenage girl.
ON STATION 72
Symbiote Specialization: Rho
Symbiote Ability:
Getting Emotional
When activated, Asuka is able to affect the emotions of other living beings and creatures by inducing certain emotional states (and as a side bonus, can pick up on the emotional states of others with enough concentration). This can be positive or negative and may, at times, end up being associated with a particular person or object.
Level I
At this level, Asuka can induce basic emotional states on people: happy, sad, angry, etc. She's also a bit limited in how focused she can make it. It's typically just sort of a general mood shift and unless the other person is aware of her abilities or has experience with telepathic/mind manipulating powers, they will likely just rationalize it on their own or believe that they've been afflicted with mood swings. Range is limited to her touch. She has to concentrate to effectively pick up on the other person's current emotional state (if it's not obvious). She cannot direct the emotion AT anyone or anything, but she could certainly make suggestions the old-fashioned way. May only affect one person at a time. Usable once every twenty minutes.
Level II
At this level, her ability to direct the emotions (and the spread of them) increases. She could make someone at another person or make them sad about the current topic of conversation or more positively inclined toward her or her friends. She also requires less concentration to pick up on someone's emotional state, although it's still a part of the power that she needs to switch "on". As before, unless they're experienced with or have a reason to think that they're being actively manipulated, the target will likely rationalize it. Range is now five meters and does not require touch, although touch does make it easier. She may affect up to three targets at once. Usable once every ten minutes.
Level III
At this level, Asuka's control starts to border on instinctual. She can near effortlessly detect the emotional state of people nearby when she wishes to and then turn that emotional state on its head. They will believe that their anger or happiness or sorrow comes from something inside of themselves. They will "realize" something, although dramatic shifts in mood may still be suspicious from the perspective of an outside observer. Range is increased to ten meters. She may focus on up to five people at once. Alternatively, she can use a more basic level of the power (i.e. simply changing the very basic mood from something like excitement to disappointment or joy to anger, etc.) without anyone or anything being the particular target on small crowds (up to two dozen people). Usable once every five minutes.
At all levels, she experiences a certain degree of emotional dissociation after extended use. This can manifest either as her experiencing the emotion she intended to inflict or as an emotional numbness that will intensify with extended or extremely stressful use. During this numb period, she will be apathetic and unable to experience emotions beyond a very slight, basic level; this may have an impact on her sense of self-preservation. In addition, should she exceed the noted number of "uses" per the given time period, she will develop a horrific migraine, but will still be relatively successful, although the effect degrades with each subsequent use; if she tries to exceed her limit too often or too much or otherwise push herself too far, not only will the attempt fail, she will also knock herself unconscious.
An unintended consequence is also that the target's brain chemistry needs time to reset. Even after she finishes influencing people, it will take time for them to recover and this can potentially backfire if the target she made angry decides that she is a good target for her anger.
Inventory: Plug-suit, eye-pach, bandages.
SAMPLES
Samples: One Two
Rescue Write-up:
Asuka knows that she can win. She knows that she's the best, that these pale imitations of her Unit 02 are nothing more than chaff. Especially not now, not when she knows. Not when her mother is here with her, not when she's the most powerful, the most exuberant she's ever been. She can win. It's not even a contest. She mows through them, one after the other, after the other, after the other. There's a timer and a part of her is waiting, hoping that Unit 01 will actually show up. She only has so much battery power left and the clock is ticking town with each passing second. But she's close, she's so close, she can taste it and then he turns to swat a spear out of the sky-
It does something unexpected. It shifts, it mutates, and then two prongs of something sharp and cold drive themselves straight through her defenses (her AT field) and lance into her unit (her). There's pain. Nothing but sharp, unending agony from her left eye and she screams, clutching at an injury that she knows isn't really there, but it hurts and she's out of time. She's out of power and she feels so much anger, so much pain.
She knows she can win.
She's going to kill them. She's going to kill all of them and make them pay and she can feel Unit 02 responding, feel it starting to move, powered by the sheer force of will-
They tear her apart.
Later, much later, she's on a beach, blood-red waves washing against the sand. She's seen too much, knows too much, seen herself, seen what she is, seen what a world without any borders, without any separation is, and she hates herself for it. She hates what she is, who she is, what she's been. Shinji is kneeling over her, his hands around her throat, and he squeezes. She can feel the life being choked out of her. She can't breathe and Asuka - Asuka, for once in her life, feels pity. Pity and revulsion, because she knows now why he does what he does. She's glimpsed inside the heart of humanity and as much as she despises it, as much as she despises the idea of being forced into contact with all of them, as much as she despises herself, there's understanding now.
Horrible, twisted understanding. She brushes a hand against his cheek in a gesture that's more sympathetic than anything she ever offered him when it might have mattered and he falls away, sobbing and she can suck air back into her lungs again. She can feel her gorge rise, a twisting in her stomach and she murmurs something to the air, to the abandoned wreckage of humanity.
"I feel sick."
There's something (someone) tugging at her attention. A silent ping. There's something wrong Something that shouldn't be here. She looks up, willing herself to move (she feels shaky, newborn, as if her limbs are rubber). There's... something coming down the beach. Several somethings. Dark figures and they're moving with hostile intent. She's been a pilot long enough to know that. Her heart starts to race, picking up from a sluggish pace to a quick pitter-patter as adrenaline starts to surge again. This feels wrong in so many different ways and she eases back a step, reaching down to try and get Shinji's attention.
"Hey-"
They need to go. She needs to go. She can't stay here, something tells her. Or she's going to die all over again. She takes another step back. Where the Hell is she supposed to go? Everyone is gone. Everything is a wreck. She has no weapons, no Eva, nothing. There's a faint 'pop' of displaced air, as someone or something appears behind her and she turns, good eye wide and staring. There's a man standing there, dark-skinned and tall, and incredibly calm. All he does is extend his hand to her.
Maybe she's hallucinating again. Maybe this is all a dream.
There's something (someone) tugging at her attention. Another silent inquiry. The man in front of her stares silently.
Do you want to live?
"Yes," she says, without a second thought.
The world falls away.